i cant do it anymore. im always flushed with guilt and uncertainty. i didnt plan this. fuck! its not like i asked for this to happen, its been only a few days and im drowning in paranoia. i wish no one made that unwritten rule. :( or or i wish i never heard of that rule, BFF right? god. i need someone that i can actually talk too :/ someone that wouldnt judge me. it sort of seems like somethings up today. i feel so out of it, and trust me if this feeling was human i would spit at it. fo real! thus, i just wanted to say. im truly very deeply sorry. i would never hurt you the way others did me. you're my best friend. or so i think so cause it hasnt been the same lately:/
and i repeat honey. im sorry sorry sorry:(
Gosh Gosh Gosh im starting to hate all the stalkerazzis in my neighbourhood. can't a girl walk in her own garden without atleast one person staring at her?
and isnt it considered rude to keep staring after the person's alreadyy caught youu? doesnt that apply to me anymore? gosh. whatever i decided im awesome and you envy me. :)
in other news. CHANGE OF PLANS:/
no after partyy with bo. apparently amal's not going too. boo. instead imma go out on saturdayy to smallie's farewell partay in midvalley then jet on over to nathie's place then aljon's partyy. HAPPY EARLY BIRTHDAY sweetstuff:) then then imma go to lycel's house. im sleeping over. whoop whoop! thanks lycel. now i just need to confirm everything with dadsterr,. aha
i wonder if amal wouldnt be too busy to go out on saturdayy to catch a movie :/
oh well i'll ask her laterrs
p.s/: Hilmi, Danea and Adrina, im so sorry for not replying yesterdayy, ran out of credit. oh and to kirstyy, all is forgiven i know now how you feel :) im sorry babyy
CRYPSIE darling, i need you more than ever right now. skype me soon yes sayang?
x love you
postage by:) Eleena Zakie
